It's been a long time..

It has been a long time since I've written. It pains me to think that life has gotten in the way of my writing. But, if anything were to get in my way, I imagine that there is no better thing than life.

Toddlers..work..marriage..dinner..the treacherous bedtime

I was very lucky to be able to stay home with my littlest guy for about 2 1/2 years before I had to go back to work. It was certainly one of the most difficult things that I have ever had to do, go back to work that is. I've managed to make a few friends that I would seriously consider hanging out with outside of work but otherwise, eh.

Then, I realized that there was something much harder...Juggling!!

Juggling a full time job, the raising of two very bullish little boys, maintaining a fulfilling marriage and getting to sleep at a decent hour. Oh wait, I forgot about picking up the kids from school, making dinner, homework, laundry, bath time, dishes, bedtime and then whatever I didn't finish before putting the kids to bed. Bed time for me comes much later.

I leave you with these words because I have to get the kids to bed. I will be back soon.

Some people are still clueless

I had a conversation with the receptionist at my dentist's office and she asked if I was working.

I said, "No, not right now. I was in the mortgage business."

She asked if I had quit my job.

I said, "No. I was in the mortgage industry. It is the reason for our failed economy."

She looked at me and said, "What do you mean?"

Now, I was the confused one. I asked her if she had any idea about what had gone on with the economy and the mortgage industry taking a dive.

She said, and I quote, "No, I guess I should start watching the news or something."

My first thought was, "Is this girl an idiot? How can she have no idea? We are teetering on the edge of a depression. A million people are losing their homes and she has NO IDEA!!!!!"

My second thought was, "Wow, lucky her..She is completely unaffected by the economy. The only one!!"

I am still perplexed by how completely ignorant people can be and that it is people like her that will keep our planet on a down-slope. What do I mean? Well, if she is completely blind to the state of our nation, what else is she blind to? Global warming? The atrociously disgusting treatment of the human race in places like Darfur? The horrible effects of human waste on our only planet, our only life source?

I get increasingly worried every time I see a dead bee. Small and scary to some but detrimental to the survival of the human race on planet Earth. My 3 year old son Max points and says, "Look mama, another dead bee." about 10 times a day. This is very scary. I am concerned that we aren't seeing more coverage on TV about this issue. Only once in a while will I see a story about situations surrounding bees. Like the bee keepers that are going out of business and losing their homes because entire bee colonies are dying right under their noses and they don't know why. They called it Colony Collapse Disorder. Bees are abandoning their colonies. Now, I am not sure that this is related to the various dead bees that I see on the sidewalk but this is serious, none the less.

My only hope is that Obama really recognizes the dire situation ahead of us. I know that the environment is deep in his heart but I only hope it is not too late to fix our planet. Because when it is all said and done, those "fiscal republicans" will not have a planet to piss on and nowhere to put their money that won't matter anyway because there won't be anything to buy and no fancy dinners to feast on because there won't be any bees to polinate the produce and crops to feed the cow that will be their steak.

Where did the year go???

I have decided something...

Since the years go by so quickly, it isn't really where you are going nor where you have been, but where you are right now. Of course, where I have been has built who I am today but I have the power to change that. I watch my children and so much happens right now. A smile, a giggle, the pincer grasp, new words, using the toilet and saying, "Goodbye to diapers." All of the most important things are happening right now. And every day, something important is happening.

I realize that we cannot forsee the future. We do not know where it leads. Death usually comes as a surprise so, now is really all that we've got. This means that I must keep moving right now in whatever way that makes me happy. Whether it be walking, running, weight lifting, Yoga, whatever. It's all the same. It not only keeps me healthy but balances my state of mind.

I realize that keeping my cool right now is important because it builds my children's characters. If I yell, so do they. If I blow off the handle, it will be all that they know. Oh, what a tangled web we weave.

My older son will be 3 and my baby will be 1. This tells me that I won't have a baby in the house any longer. This makes me a bit sad and nostalgic. No, I am not going to have another baby. As much as I love it, I am relieved that those very difficult yet beautiful moments are soon to be behind me. The sleepless nights will not be missed. The constant need for my infant's need for me. My constant worry that something horrific will happen in the middle of the night. Hmm, I am sure that that particular feeling never goes away when it comes to our children. No matter how old they are.

It is true...what really matters is right now!! Right NOW!!!

Live for now. Play with your children. Love your husband. Love your wife. Go for a ride to your favorite place. Book a trip to somewhere you've never been.

Just live!!!!

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Creatively working from home

I decided that I am a much better employee to my children and my home than I am for anyone else; simply because I get more out of it.
I have made a few onesies, t-shirts and blankets for friends when they were having babies and each time I am told that I need to sell them because they are so beautiful and well made. So, here I go...

Here are some examples of what I have made. All hand-made.

We may be on our way to a cure...

As I had mentioned, I was sick of being sick. I saw a new doctor on Friday and she was amazing. First, she tells me that my incessant cough is due to my post nasal drip and prescribed me something to make the cough reflex stop. It is miraculous. I haven't coughed since. YEEHAW!!

I mentioned to her that I had stopped the dairy as requested by my other doctor but that it wasn't necessarily helping with my other more embarrassing symptom that I don't believe that I need to mention. I'm sure you can figure it out. Anyway, after some research, it has been suggested that I discontinue all foods that have fructose in them. This is really hard since almost everything has fructose in it, even my favorites like stone fruits, etc.

Not only has that nasty little symptom stopped completely, its actually been 2 days since I've gone. Wow, I cannot believe the difference. I feel a thousand percent better and I have more energy and I'm not so tired. I have suffered for easily 3 years and finally we have figured it out.

I suppose this could mean to never give up hope on whatever ails you because it could be as simple as what you are eating. I think that most of the time it comes down to the chemicals and other crud that is being put into our foods.

I know that it can be very difficult to stop using all of those items but a good head start would be to try to purchase as many organic products as you can. Look at the labels. Read them. Get to know what you are putting in your body. After all, it is your only body. There is no lemon law in effect on the human body.

No trade-ins welcome, just repairs.

My angry 2 year old.

My son is 2 going on 3 in September and we can't figure out why he is so angry. He is the angriest at me and I am his mom. He hits me, kicks me, makes a fist and threatens to punch me and screams at me. Yes, we do yell in the house when he has taken us to our very limits but who doesn't? We are not big believers in spanking, so what are we doing wrong? Not spanking him?

When I was nursing him, and I did this for 14 months, he loved me. He couldn't be without me. I couldn't leave the room without him exploding with fear and anxiety. Then, he became independent of me and moved on to a sippy cup. Suddenly, his daddy was his hero and wanted nothing to do with me. One month later, I got pregnant with our second. We kept him in the loop of his impending big brotherhood. He would kiss and hug my belly. He would tell his brother that he loved him through my belly. Before he knew it, his brother was here and there was certainly a shift in attention. The baby demanded a lot of my attention and his daddy was his primary go to parent for a little while. His anger certainly escalated at this time. He didn't like anyone but me giving his brother attention. If his daddy was holding his brother than all hell would break loose. He loves his daddy so much and he would try to pry his brother out of his daddy's arms at the expense of his brother's health and safety.

We hope that this is a phase but it worries us. It makes me especially sad when he mistreats me and wants nothing to do with me. I know....he is 2. Is this the terrible 2's or is this a prelude to something worse?

The thing is, he is a wonderful boy. He is sweet and loving and kind and plays well with others. I am the one he has set his sights on to mistreat. The minute I wake up in the morning, he is already yelling at me and telling me to go away. If I'm lucky he will hit me in the stomach or kick me. I'm not a big believer in any attention is good attention. It's not!!!!

"Where do I go from here?", I ask myself.

I am not necessarily going to ignore his actions but I am not going to put too much stock in it either. I will watch how he progresses and if it goes away, great. If not, then a visit with his pediatrician will be the way to go.

We'll see...